diavenal

Bakit nga ba may mga taong nagseselos???

Na-experience mo na ba.. na.. ang iyong mother.....

Ma, manonood lang po ng sine

Anak.. next time na lang

Lagi ka na lang hinihigpitan..

youre not allowed to do this..

youre not allowed to do that..

At kahit pa ang iniisip mo ay magpa-sweet sa
NANAY mo..

Tipong bibili ka ng regalo para lang mapangiti
sha..

Ma, punta lang po sa mall.. may bibilin lang

No anak.. dito ka na lang

O diba??? Sha na nga inaalala mo.. ayaw pa??
Binongga ka talaga!!!

samantalang ang kapatid mong nakakatanda.. ;Ma, overnight kami
ng barkada sa antipolo..

Ok anak, ingat..

Wow.. parents really are fair sa mga anak
nila.. na PABORITO nila..

Diba nakakasama ng loob??? Feeling mo.. wala
shang tiwala sayo..

Feeling mo.. kahit sino, pinapaboran nya, pwera
IKAW.. 

Talaga nga naman.. 

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Na-expeRieNce mo na ba.. Na.. ang
BESTFRiEND
mo..

Na dati.. Bestfriend, ang sarap umiyak.. sakit
e

With whom youll respond Bes, ok lang yan..
lilipas din yan..

Na ngayon ay may ibang nakakaclose??? Tipong
wala
na siyang oras sayo

Tipong.. parang di mo na sha kilala at mas
kilala na sha ng new found
friend nya?????!!

Tipong pag nakausap mo sha.. nahihiya ka pa..

Ang feeling???.. feeling mo youre no longer
needed..

Feeling mo.. nakalimutan ka na nya...

Feeling mo.. naaalala ka lang nya pag kelangan
ka nya..

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Na-experience mo na ba.. Na.. ang LIHIM mong
MAHAL ..

Na dati.. kinakausap ka ng madalas.. lagi kang
naaalala..

Na dati.. di mo na kailangan pang magpapansin
para mapansin..

At dati rin.. ay parang nagkakaron na rin ng
feelings for you..

Ay may iba nang kinagigiliwan ngayon??!!!

At ngayon.. ay naalala ka lang pag may ikukwento
sha tungkol sa kanyang
giliw..

Ang malupet pa don.. eto na ang opening line
nya...

Lam mo ba MAHAL n MAHAL ko siya.. Lam mo ba UMALIS KME KNINA.. Lam mo ba KASAMA KO SIYA KNINA..

at kung anu ano pa.

ABA!!!

it hurts so bad..

So you just say to yourself... Hayy... lalayo na
nga ako... masasaktan
lang ako..

Lalo na sa ganitong sitwasyon.. LIIT na LIIT ka
sa sarili mo...

Mapakahit anong relationship pa yan... mom &
daughter, father & son,
bestfriends, close friends, lovers..

ALL have experienced JEALOUSY!!!! NA sa halos
lahat ng selosan blues...

Lahat na ng negative... lahat na ng bad side,
naisip naten...

Sometimes... we even ask... GOD, why in world
do you have to put me
through this madness???

The QUESTION: DAPAT ba talagang
MAGSELOS????

A lot would say no well in fact.. theyve been
jealous for more than a
hundred times..

BAKIT HINDI DAPAT.. the common reason: YOU
DONT HAVE THE RIGHT!!!

What kind of reason is that??? Pag sinabi mo yan
sa taong nagseselos..

You have just contributed half of his burden..
thinking to himself.. he
really dont have the right..
Well... wala talaga shang karapatan.. pero hindi
iyon ang reason..

IF YOUD BE JEALOUS..

it means that YOU DONT TRUST YOURSELF?
That
you have INSECURITIES sa
katawan mo?

youre a LOSER kse youve let yourself believe in
all the NEGATIVE thoughts
you had regarding the situation?

ETO LANG NAMAN ANG DAPAT ISIPIN EH..

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A PURPOSE..

At sa lahat ng situation na ganito.. na tipong
magseselos ka..

Bago ka magseselos.. isipin mo muna.. ano ba
talaga ang dahilan nito???

At kung totoo nga ang mga NEGATIVE thoughts
na
nasa isipan mo..

Dont even dare to question GOD why.. just ask
for His help..

STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT MATTER na
nagpapaselos
sayo..

Kase.. kung di mo titigilan yan.. ikaw naman
ang mahihirapan dahil ikaw
ang nasasaktan..

AT isipin mo.. THERES ONLY 1 WAY PARA
MATIGIL
ANG PAGSESELOS MO..

Mawala ang reason ng pagseselos.. which could
be
done.. by..

HAVING AN OPEN MIND..  AND TRUSTING YOURSELF. DO WHAT YOU THIK IS RIGHT.

diavenal

Now I have an idea why people make such a big deal about exes. You
know...Stuff like, getting over the ex. Dealing with the ex. Being
friends with the ex. Being the ex.

I am an ex.

I know that it's stupid --- and silly -- to sound as if my whole
life revolved around being somebody's ex-girlfriend. But I can't
help it... that title packs a pretty strong punch. I am now an
official member of the "loved-and-lost" club. And while it's a title
I don't exactly want, I have to admit that it does say some things
about me.

I am an ex.

I once loved someone who loved me back. But he didn't want to
stay...So I had to let him go. I cried. A lot. I spent countless
nights wondering what went wrong, muffling my sobs with my pillows
so my parents wouldn't suspect that something was amiss. I'd
reminisce about our happy times, then break down when I'd realiz
that he was no longer mine. I analyzed every single detail of our
breakup. I wrote long e-mails to my closest friends. I talked
endlessly about my situation. I spent my nights in tearful
telephone conversations and my days in daydreams where we'd end up
in each other's arms again.

Sometimes he was still my angel, still my knight in shining armor
who I'd do anything for just to have back. But sometimes, I saw him
as the devil incarnate who broke my heart in the worst possible way,
and who deserved to be horsewhipped at the very least.

I told myself that it was all for the better. That this was what was
best for the both of us. That this was God's plan. My friends
offered similar advice, none of which I hadn't heard before: "It's a
sign that you're not meant for each other," "When God closes a
door, He opens a window," "Someone better is coming for you," "There
are so many other fish in the sea," etc. But it didn't work.
Because dee! p down, I still believed that he was the one, the only
one. And I couldn't understand how this was all for the better...
when every day seemed more torturous than the last... not being able
to be with him the way I wanted to be, seeing him so unaffected, and
dealing with my broken-and-smashed heart and my bruised ego.

I tried to immerse myself in other activities to forget about him.
I went out a lot. I filled my schedule with movie marathons,
shopping sprees, and Dance Maniax. It worked for a while... but
then there were times -- times when my mind was cleared of the busy
thoughts I tried to occupy it with -- that I would think of him. His
memory would sneak up to me on tiptoes, catching me in my most
vulnerable moments.

I tried to show the world that I was OK. That I was over him. That
it was fine just being friends. I didn't go around with a big "X" on
my forehead, nor did I go around with puffy eyes and a tissue box. I
tried to live my life, as I knew it before I m him. People thought
that I was doing great. They heard me laugh and they saw me smile; I
seemed happy, they said; and I told myself that I was. But in the
solace of my room, where I tried to organize my thoughts and sort
out my feelings, I had to admit to myself that I wasn't truly happy.
Because I was still yearning for someone, and my heart still ached
for something that could not be.

It's been over 2 months since we broke up, surprisingly, things have
gotten better. I've changed. Somewhere along the way, I realized
that he wasn't the only one out there for me. I also realized that
there were valid, powerful reasons why we split up. And I've become
stronger, older, and wiser. He's changed as well -- when I look at
him, sometimes I still see the boy I fell in love with. Sometimes I
think that he's the same person... he stil l has the same goofy smile
and mischie! vous charm that I fell for, and I like to believe that
the rest of him is unchanged as well. But then I take a closer look
and I realize that he HAS changed...that I don't know him anymore,
not really... not enough to love and care for him as I once did.

I am an ex.

I've loved and lost. I've cried tears for the things that were and
that could have been. I've wrestled with intense feelings of love
and hate, of jealousy, of frustration. I've simultaneously taken
down and brought up my pride. I've tried to rebuild my world
without the person whom it used to revolve around. I've tried to
save myself from the depths of depression and self-pity, and when I
couldn't do that, I turned to God for help.

I don't know exactly what I gained, or how much I lost. Maybe
someday it will be all clear to me...then again, maybe not.

"You didn't have to tell me how you used to love me. I wa s keeping
my silence...you should have! done the same. siguro okei lng sayo na
sabihin yun kse a na...tapos na…pro sana naisip mo na maybe...just
maybe...it would hurt me…kse hanggang ngayon mahal pa rin kita…
though we never had anything between us. I love you even if that's
not the love you need"

diavenal

have you ever ^{fell in love} with someone close to you and you just dont understand why? and all you can do is to _{stay beside} the person and watch the person _fall for ^{someone else}? well i _have  and it just sux.

this is the moment where a lot of thoughts crossed my mind. in this _{time of silence while} ^{alone in my room..}

oh crap. we all hate the feeling but thats's life.

diavenal

Soundtrip.

Eto ang madalas kong gawin maliban sa maglaro at mkipag usap sa aking mga kaibigan.

Marami akong kantang hilig. tulad ng..

only reminds me of you

A little bit

Tell me where it hurts

welcome to my life-

officially missing you-

will you wait for me-

i'll never go-

Ibat ibang knta, kanya kanyang mensahe. Yang mga naka saad sa itaas ay ang mga paborito kong mga kanta.

diavenal

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diavenal

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diavenal

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